Just because you know it's for the best,

Doesn't make it hurt any less.

The inevitable has happened. I knew that it would come eventually, I just didn't want to accept it. Me and my boyfriend have split. It was semi-mutual, meaning that I knew we probably should, I just really didn't want to.

It's hard to want to let go of someone who is so close to being exactly what you've been looking for. And despite his indiscretions in the past, he is a really nice guy and will one day make some girl really happy. It's just that girl isn't me, and that's hard to bare. Especially when you've spent the last year hoping, praying, and demanding that you get a nice guy. I feel I totally deserve to be finding Mr. Right by now. I've been a good girl, and I've put up with a lot of shit. I think karmic-wise I deserve it by now.

On another note, I have now moved down to Vancouver. It seemed best that I go right away, since the only thing that was keeping from going, was now out of my life. That, and I'm a sensetive one, and wouldn't be able to bare driving past certain places without bursting into tears right now.

So now it's my sisters job to keep me entertained, and gainfully employed. Well, at least make sure that I get off my ass and go out and look anyways.

Now, if only I had an army and a HUGE trash bag, so that I could clean up her tiny closet of an apartment. Or find a better one of my own....